Rapture, or, I am still here which means: 1. They were wrong 2. I am delusional, and I am not here 3. This is actually, Hell

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It was 5:45 p.m. and we were on the highway, almost home. My husband asked me, “So you have fifteen minutes left, what do you want?”

Without hesitation I said, “A cold beer and a hot shower.”

I have always lived the last-minute philosophy. I would write papers a day or so before they were due, study for tests by pulling all-nighters, having a dinner party tomorrow? Better plan a menu!

It makes me feel more alive to be squeezed for time, hemmed in. It is then that everything becomes clear.  Knowing that I wanted something so simple as a beer and a shower after along day makes me wonder why I didn’t realize this earlier in the week. When thinking about the Rapture last week, when there were days left and not minutes, I had no idea what I wanted. Like the proverbial kid-in-a-candy-store, there were too many possibilities for my brain to comprehend.

When writing, my deadlines continue to come down to the wire. I get amped up on panic and self-doubt, the double-whammy for any creative soul. Intuitively, I know this is insane behavior. But if the definition of insane is doing the same thing again and again and expecting a different result, well, strap me into a white jacket and just say it like it is.

But don’t tell me just yet, I have a beer with my name on it.

What were your last few minutes like?

 

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3 Responses to Rapture, or, I am still here which means: 1. They were wrong 2. I am delusional, and I am not here 3. This is actually, Hell

  1. Barb says:

    A quiet weekend in Maine with good friends we haven’t seen in sometime. Lots of laughs and good food. A very peaceful car ride home sitting in the back seat with Samantha while Roland Chauffeured us from Bangor to Bedford.

  2. Lis says:

    I’d have to say that I would love a few days of R & R in NH w/my closest PSC and PSC-Related friends – all of us tubing down the Pemi w/our little kids & big kids in tow!! What fun! I am at a point now that our kids are teens that I actually like to take them with me instead of leaving them off w/the grandparents!! 🙂

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